Faith vs. Intuition

[Faith03]

I have recently had a very traumatic experience which has made me question everything I know to this point, especially faith/God/religion. Due to the circumstances surrounding said event, I began focusing on my spirituality more. Admittedly, I did this for the wrong reasons in the beginning, but I think I'm coming around that corner and into the right reasons now.
I've always been an extremely intuitive person, almost, but not quite, to the point of it being a sixth sense. Because I was totally caught off guard by my experience, I began to wonder/doubt my intuition. Since it happened I have been looking for my intuition to kick in and "guide me" as to how I should think/feel/behave regarding this situation. But I have received nothing. It's like I don't even HAVE intuition anymore! Nothing.
Many people believe that intuition is your "inner God" kicking in telling you when something is a good/bad idea, etc. However, it just occurred to me that, for me at least, perhaps it is the opposite. Maybe intuition is my "inner child" instead, telling me what I already want to do, etc. Perhpas I should rely less on my intuition (myself) and instead look toward my God for answers, rather than look to myself for answers.

Just a theory, I'd be curious what others of you struggling with faith would think.

k

[goldie]

k

Hi, I'm very new to this board but really like it so far. I have had a similar experience with my faith and so your post really intrigued me. I was raised Catholic and practiced Catholicism until I was about 27 years old when I was molested by my parish priest. I then started in a Preseptyrian church where we lived and I loved it!! I felt so uplifted when I left there every Sunday morning!!! We moved to a smaller town in another state and I tried about every church in this town before I settled on an Assembly of God church. I always went for the teacher/pastor/preacher that would appeal to me and where I would stay interested and could learn. Well, like I said I tried a lot of churches. I finally got to the point where I knew that I was following the Lord the way other people thought I should. I acted and lived the way others (christians) thought I should. I finally got my fill and walked away from all of it. I want to find MY own relationship with the Lord and find out who I really am, if you will, before I go and try to win others to the Lord. What a fake I was. Maybe I need to listen to my own inner child more and not anyone else.
I wish you luck in your venture of sorting things out. Sit back and relax, let it happen. Don't force it, be yourself and it will happen. Just know that you aren't alone in trying to figure out all the "religion" stuff.

goldie